I am now in San Diego, CA where I spent the holidays and
will reside here for a long minute. Coming here hasn’t been what I expected…I
knew that coming in; but then nothing on this journey has gone according to the
expected. God is doing a new thing and when He is doing a new thing you sometimes
feel like your life is not your own, and in a sense—it isn’t. As the psalmist
sang, “my life is not my own, to you I belong” (you know the rest). I am
relearning the old familiar with a new perspective.
As a longtime single I relished in my long moments of
uninterrupted solitude. Those moments were habitual attitudes I cherished. I am
now relearning to share my dwelling space, and that my quiet moments will be
shortened with the cares and joys of others in my life. To paraphrase Bishop
Dale Bronner— if you don’t break old habits nothing in the new year will change;
nothing is new for you until you get a new perspective. While I’m not seeking
to change spending time alone in His presence, I am seeking and asking the Father
to help me accept the change in how and where I spend that time with Him; and
embrace the new pathway to intimacy that is forthcoming with others in my
space.
The final destination of my journey is still yet to be
determined. To quote Bishop Bronner again, “you are not defined by where you
are, you are defined by who you are”. Where I am in the physical sense is
becoming irrelevant—the more important consideration is where I am in the
spirit. Spiritually I am in a good place. I like knowing whose I am no matter
where I am or who I’m with. Wherever my journey takes me, I will always travel
the pathway that leads to intimacy with the Father.
