I am now in San Diego, CA where I spent the holidays and
will reside here for a long minute. Coming here hasn’t been what I expected…I
knew that coming in; but then nothing on this journey has gone according to the
expected. God is doing a new thing and when He is doing a new thing you sometimes
feel like your life is not your own, and in a sense—it isn’t. As the psalmist
sang, “my life is not my own, to you I belong” (you know the rest). I am
relearning the old familiar with a new perspective.
As a longtime single I relished in my long moments of
uninterrupted solitude. Those moments were habitual attitudes I cherished. I am
now relearning to share my dwelling space, and that my quiet moments will be
shortened with the cares and joys of others in my life. To paraphrase Bishop
Dale Bronner— if you don’t break old habits nothing in the new year will change;
nothing is new for you until you get a new perspective. While I’m not seeking
to change spending time alone in His presence, I am seeking and asking the Father
to help me accept the change in how and where I spend that time with Him; and
embrace the new pathway to intimacy that is forthcoming with others in my
space.
The final destination of my journey is still yet to be
determined. To quote Bishop Bronner again, “you are not defined by where you
are, you are defined by who you are”. Where I am in the physical sense is
becoming irrelevant—the more important consideration is where I am in the
spirit. Spiritually I am in a good place. I like knowing whose I am no matter
where I am or who I’m with. Wherever my journey takes me, I will always travel
the pathway that leads to intimacy with the Father.
6 comments:
A profound word I need to ponder. I am glad for the peace you have found in your journey. There are many points that are applicable to mine as well. To God be the glory in all things! Much love, Carla
Love you too Carla...would love to hear those compatible points.
Unexpected changes. God is doing a new thing -- I don't know what. Definitely feel life is not my own. I'm okay with it as I know my purpose is to glorify Him. Not looking ahead, not demanding to know what's going on. Content in knowing that He has a greater purpose. He will never leave me or forsake me. He wants to give me His best. He is ordering my steps. I have never had fewer answers and never been more content.
I feel you on all of those, especially the contentment with no answers. It is amazing how the less we know the better we are, our trust in Him is stronger.
Hey cuz, that was a 'deep' word! You are in God's hands and He knows where to place you! Love ya, Gwen
He is doing a good job isn’t He! Love you cuz ��
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