Up and Down Feelings

 

For once in my life I feel like my faith is bigger than a mustard seed

So why do I feel like I want to cry

The river is raging 

But the flood gates won’t open

The tears are there but they won’t flow

I wonder why…

If I cry 

Will I have a soft place to fall 

Will I recover if I cry all alone 

I want to stay strong and appear that way 

I believe I’m going to live and not die 

So why would I cry 

I walk in strengthen faith every day

Seek God’s face and constantly pray

Lord help me to keep my smile 

Remembering I’m Your anointed child 

For You I carry my lamp filled with oil

While I travel through this cancerous toil 

I have no fear—it’s defeated by faith

Court is in session and I’m winning my case 

I know I’m not alone as I run this race 

While tears clean the windows of your soul

It’s praise that keeps me brave—and bold

So crying…stay in your rightful place 

 

 Nov 10, 2024 at 10:40AM 

 

I finally cried… they were tears of relief when I knew that I would not have to brave it alone. 

Especially after finding out I skipped over the invasive part of the diagnosis. God sheltered me from the hardest part in the beginning of the storm so I could muster up faith bigger than a mustard seed. 

 Nov 11, 2024 at 10:33AM 

 

 

With interlocked fingers I place them on my chest rebuking the cancer invading my breast letting it know you are treading on protected territory 

I am a warrior living out God’s great story!

 Nov 11, 2024 at 11:02AM l

 

Standing in the window carrying something no one wants to hold

While holding onto the greatest story ever told

 Nov 11, 2024 at 12:09PM 

 

With folded hands I fast and pray 

Thanking you Lord You have taken it away 

 Nov 11, 2024 at 12:20PM 

 

I walk 

I dance 

I recall Your story 

My heart sings 

As I give You the glory 

 Nov 11, 2024 at 12:27PM